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I coasted through 2006 with little in the way of adventure. But near the end I made a solid decision regarding what I want to make of myself, and if all goes well I'll start on that path this year. I'm guessing that very little will be the same by this point next year, which is far more satisfying to me than having most everything stay the same. I like change, despite the need for an anchor of some sort.

Oh, I have made a single resolution: to care
brynndragon: (Default)
I coasted through 2006 with little in the way of adventure. But near the end I made a solid decision regarding what I want to make of myself, and if all goes well I'll start on that path this year. I'm guessing that very little will be the same by this point next year, which is far more satisfying to me than having most everything stay the same. I like change, despite the need for an anchor of some sort.

Oh, I have made a single resolution: to care
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I am not an eloquent person. Sometimes I will say the weirdest and/or stupidest things in my attempts to express myself, other times I will not be able to say anything beyond "there is a wrongness to that" or "that makes me feel bad" or whatnot. I do not discover what I want and how I feel by examining the world around me and then concluding how I will respond to it, I have emotions and desires and reactions to the world and only then can I try to figure out what caused them. I wear my heart on my sleeve (less than I used to, but more than many people I know), which means people see those emotions and reactions before I have had the opportunity to examine them, much less the time to translate that understanding into expression.

Some people conclude that I am not self-aware, or that I am stupid, because of this. I find that frustrating and hurtful, which results in a tendency to hide within myself or distrust anything I can't fully explain. The problem with that is my emotions and intuitions tend to be an accurate reflection of the world and show me the best way to deal with it. I feel that I had the time to parse and express these emotions and intuitions I would see the world much more clearly and handle it much better.
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I am not an eloquent person. Sometimes I will say the weirdest and/or stupidest things in my attempts to express myself, other times I will not be able to say anything beyond "there is a wrongness to that" or "that makes me feel bad" or whatnot. I do not discover what I want and how I feel by examining the world around me and then concluding how I will respond to it, I have emotions and desires and reactions to the world and only then can I try to figure out what caused them. I wear my heart on my sleeve (less than I used to, but more than many people I know), which means people see those emotions and reactions before I have had the opportunity to examine them, much less the time to translate that understanding into expression.

Some people conclude that I am not self-aware, or that I am stupid, because of this. I find that frustrating and hurtful, which results in a tendency to hide within myself or distrust anything I can't fully explain. The problem with that is my emotions and intuitions tend to be an accurate reflection of the world and show me the best way to deal with it. I feel that I had the time to parse and express these emotions and intuitions I would see the world much more clearly and handle it much better.

Baby steps

May. 30th, 2006 12:28 am
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I'm trying to better understand the concepts of yin, yang, and qi. Here's a small attempt, a baby step toward comprehension:

If yang and yin are as two children on a see-saw, always in balance and always in motion, where is qi? Qi can be found in three places. Qi is the fulcrum of the see-saw, the center-point that both defines the balance between yin and yang and allows for their constant motion. Qi is the force that causes the sea-saw to move, generated by the conflict and cooperation of yin and yang. Finally, qi is the sea-saw itself, the connection between yin and yang without which the dynamic force of their movement could not exist.

Baby steps

May. 30th, 2006 12:28 am
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I'm trying to better understand the concepts of yin, yang, and qi. Here's a small attempt, a baby step toward comprehension:

If yang and yin are as two children on a see-saw, always in balance and always in motion, where is qi? Qi can be found in three places. Qi is the fulcrum of the see-saw, the center-point that both defines the balance between yin and yang and allows for their constant motion. Qi is the force that causes the sea-saw to move, generated by the conflict and cooperation of yin and yang. Finally, qi is the sea-saw itself, the connection between yin and yang without which the dynamic force of their movement could not exist.
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Check out the meditation beginner's drop-in at Cambridge Insight Meditation Center next tuesday and see if regularly meditating there would be useful/nifty.
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Check out the meditation beginner's drop-in at Cambridge Insight Meditation Center next tuesday and see if regularly meditating there would be useful/nifty.

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