http://squibbon.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] squibbon.livejournal.com) wrote in [personal profile] brynndragon 2008-01-10 11:33 pm (UTC)

Yeah, I've ranged from being pretty skinny to mildly/arguably overweight, the changes were mostly related to medication rather than lifestyle stuff. I actually found that people felt a lot freer to say mean things to me when I was very skinny, and a lot of it came from guys. Most men know better than to say negative things about a woman being overweight especially if they're interested in her, but for some reason calling me "skeletal" was OK (and actually, I wasn't underweight by a long shot.) It was also weird to have everyone around me assume I had been dieting when really I was chowing down on high calorie stuff like nuts and food with a ton of olive oil and protein shakes to keep from losing too much weight too fast.

Now I live in a neighborhood where most of the women I see on the street are a size 4 or below, and I'm on a different set of meds and gaining back some weight. Nobody is saying anything overt, but I do feel uncomfortable sometimes despite currently being around the middle of the BMI range. Even when I know I'm still a healthy weight, and that gaining some back is OK, it's still hard on me when I have to go shopping for larger jeans. You just can't win.

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